Christian Penn

 His first mug shot. 

 I'm writing this and Christian Penn is already 10 months old. So I've come out of the moment and this may not be exactly how I felt in the moment. I know my hips hurt. My back hurt very early on. I blew up pretty fast that my mom and I wondered if I had two. I hated the first trimester. No one really loves it. I spent the entire summer in the pool before he was born and I felt far to lazy all the time. That being said...

 I kinda always love being pregnant. I bond with my babies while they are inside me. I love to feel them kick and move and I love to think about our lives together.

 He was a planned c-section. I go the only way I know how to go and have a baby. I hated this c-section. I could feel more of the movements and pulls than I cared for. It made me wonder just how quickly I might feel the actual pain of the surgery. Jason was so into watching it that the anesthesiologist took the role of calming me down. When they pulled him out and I heard his beautiful cry that was completely his own I felt tears forming in my eyes. Then I heard a nurse say "he has red hair!" I almost lost my mind. I LOVE red hair!! It's all I have ever wanted for my children. When she brought him to me...I didn't see red hair. But he stopped crying the moment I started to talk to him so I enjoyed that and forgot about the red hair claim.

 Meeting his brothers for the first time. They were over the moon!

 and so it turns out. He does have some red hair that likes to come shinning brightly in just the right light. :)

We love him. We love him! Oh, how we all love this baby of ours!!

These are my boys.

 Joseph is going into 2nd grade this year. 2nd grade! He is pushes me every day to be a better mom because he expects nothing but the best out of life. He is also forgiving of my short comings. He has a mind that is made for such deep thinking and he asks me all kinds of questions and most answers only lead him to ask more. He is always on the go and using his inquisitive personality for mischief. Although, he does not want to be singled out as the ringleader so he uses his great ability for delegation by asking his little brother if he wants to do something first  or ask mom for something.....He can often feel overwhelmed in life if things get to chaotic or if clear boundaries have not been laid out for him. He is my sensitive child who is also full of wildly boyish humor and loves to laugh. He is especially fun to be with on a one on one basis. He completely shines and beams with joy when he gets special time with you.

 Daniel will be turning 5 soon. I heard him tell a friend on the playground how he was 4 but almost 5 and I swear my heart fell out of my chest. I couldn't really believe my baby Daniel was almost 5. He was sent to earth to love his big brother better than any little brother ever has.He is the most selfless child I have ever seen. He totally gets that quality from his father. He has the sweetest voice ever. I've been told he sounds like garden fairies and mickey mouse! He loves to play rough and will often try to beat up his father and if he gets any reaction he screams out ''Joseph!!! It's wrestle time!!!" He is my personal snuggle buddy in the house where most do not like to give huge bear hugs like I do. His laugh is pretty contagious.

Introducing my littlest little. Christian Penn.
I've not given any account thus far so for the moment I will give a brief description of my boo boo bear. I think he deserves a birth post of his own. For now, you should know that he has changed my mind about babies. I've never had one so gentle and calm and who is sleeping and eating so well. And as every mother out there knows, these are amazing qualities to have as a infant who cannot tell you everything they want.

These are my boys.
they each are my loves.